Friday, 9 May 2014
30 Days Blog Challenge - Day 02 - Where you'd like to be in 10 years
This is one of those questions which seem to be asked over and over again throughout your whole life and whether you're 16 or 40, people always seem to be forcing you to look to the future.
When I was 7 the answer was simple. Assuming that I was not going to become a princess any time soon, I wanted to get into this amazing boarding school in my area that I knew would just be like Malory Towers and Hogwarts (which I did eventually go to and no it wasn't like any literary boarding schools). When I was 10 the answer was also pretty easy - at university. I didn't know what I wanted to study yet, but it all sounded like fun and I was definitely sure I wanted to go. Probably to Oxford or Cambridge, because in my naïve little mind, I was definitely cleverer than the majority of the people in the country.
However, in the past few years this question has been causing me a little more difficulty. Because the honest answer is - I have no fricking clue. I can barely plan for next month, let alone next decade.
So I have come to hate this question with a passion but that does not mean that everyone leaves me alone to work it out....no no. If anything, they seem to be asking more frequently, wondering if I have come to a decision yet. And as the impending doom of my graduation comes closer, the frequency with which I am asked, is rising....and yes I do see my graduation as doom. Not because, I am not excited to join the big bad world. Not even because I am going to miss the subject I am studying (I am more than happy to finally put an end to my 18 years in education). But purely because I have literally no idea what I want to do with my life. None at all. And the people who keep on asking me to think about the future are stressing me out.
I am currently on a teacher training course and the amazing thing about studying a vocational degree (such as teaching, medicine, veterinary sciences, journalism, nursing...) you are pretty much guaranteed a job at the end of it. And you certainly don't have to stress about what you are doing next. That decision has already been made. The problems only begin when you are part way through that course and you realise the vocation is no longer for you. Which is what happened to me last summer. A major, hugely difficult decision that I had to make. Fine. Good. That's step 1. Step 2, is working out what I actually want to do. Another idea will come soon...right? What I did not bargain for, was how rushed off my feet I was going to be this year. I barely have had time to breathe, let alone make life decisions. So it's 11 months on and I still have no ideas.
But I think that's fine. And if I decide that I want to spend a year working in a shop so I have a little time to work out my options, that should certainly satisfy everyone else. On top of that, people forget how young we actually are. We have plenty of time to settle down, have kids, get trapped into a mortgage and sell our souls to a company who overwork and underpay us. When people spend their time constantly looking to the future, wondering what their next moves are, many of them forget to enjoy the present. Life has this way of working itself out eventually so my advice is to stop worrying about it and just go with the flow.