Sunday, 31 January 2016

Getting Sorted

Just in case you haven't noticed me moaning constantly on Twitter, I have been poorly and bedbound this week. Which I don't deal with very well -- hence the constant mopey tweets.

It also means that my week hasn't been overly interesting. What was very exciting though, was the return of Pottermore with a brand new look. I had already been sorted and all that jazz when it first came out a few years ago, but I was curious to see if my personality had changed at all (and yes, I can hear your laughter at the fact that I 100% base my personality on what house I would be in at Hogwarts).

I am proud to announce that I am still a Hufflepuff -- hooray. They have always been my favourite house (partly because I fancied Cedric Diggory like BIG TIME) and the one I thought I would probably be in. Clearly I am a badger through and through.

So now I have my house and my wand, all I need now is my Hogwarts Letter. Come on Albus Dumbledore -- I would be a great witch, I promise =]

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Tuesday, 26 January 2016

Ex Machina

Films!!! I love them. Aren't they just the perfect way to end a stressful day? A way of ignoring your own problems, you can put yourself in someone else's shoes and think about their problems instead.

As my brain is always buzzing with ideas and thoughts (seriously, that thing is never quiet) I find films the perfect way to switch it off through means of distraction. It's perfect. While my brain is occupied with someone else's life, I can wind down and relax.

For that reason, when I watch films, I tend to choose comedy or romance. Ones that have endearing likeable characters, but are not too much effort to follow and I don't have to think about them too hard.

Ex Machina couldn't be any more different to that.

Sure, I didn't expect a chick flick but somehow I didn't expect that either! Like WHATTTTT? Seriously. What happened?

Ok so I am going to assume at this point that you, dear reader, have watched Ex Machina. Because that means I can fill this mini discussion with loads of spoilers and I don't have to talk through what happened. So if you haven't watched it I will place the SPOILER ALERT here, and urge you to go see it. Right now. It's brilliant and I would really recommend it.

But, oh my days. For want of a better phrase (and sorry to anyone who does not like cursing) - what a total mind fuck.

That ending though. Shall I flout tradition and begin with the end? Why not?

This freaked me out a lot. Ava's brutality was ever so slightly horrifying. And her betrayal of Caleb - the one good person who you could be certain of his moral niceness - was completely unforgivable. We had spent two hours falling in love with him and watching him fall in love with her because he thought she was worthy of it. To have him so suddenly and so completely let down was heart breaking beyond words.

But how evil was she actually? Ava didn't kill Caleb yet she did. It was pretty certain that Caleb was going to die anyway at the hands of Nathan...would that have been better because it wasn't unexpected? And because Nathan's form of evil was so much more straightforward.

Ava only thought the way she did because she had been programmed to do so by a maniac (and however bad she is at the end, there's no taking away from the fact that Nathan is a complete and utter nutter) driven by greed and money and insanity! She did what she had to do, because she thought this was the only way she would be able to get where she wanted. And she probably did have to behave that way to achieve that. If Caleb had left with her, what sort of life would she honestly have had? How likely was it that Caleb would have performed more tests on her and ultimately destroyed any chance she had of total freedom? The only way she would be completely free was to be alone -- something that Nathan must have inadvertently drummed into her due to his love of seclusion.  

This film was a study of humanity more than a study of AI! And my goodness it did not put us in a good light. But do you know what else is freaky beyond belief - that there could be robots all over the world that we don't even know about. Or, scarier still, maybe we are in fact are the robots.

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Tuesday, 19 January 2016

The Big Book Questionnaire

I love books. And, almost as much as I love books, I love talking about books. So when I spotted this blogging tag on twitter, I just had to take part in it. I haven't done a tag in absolutely forever either so that was even more of a reason. Let's get right down to it, shall we?

1. Do you get sick while reading in the car?
I do! Which is really irritating but I don't actually spend much time traveling around by car. I prefer the train and will quite happily read for hours while zooming through the English countryside. I was once on a coach for 7 hours travelling up to Durham and I was determined to read. I couldn't just sit there, doing nothing all day. Because it was mostly motorways, I was ok for the majority of the time. However in the last couple of hours, I was feeling horrendous. I would spend 10 minutes reading then 20 staring ahead and trying not to puke!

2. Which author's writing style do you feel to be completely unique?
Probably Roddy Doyle - he is a wonderfully laidback Irish author, who is so readable and funny. Try him.

3. Harry Potter Series or the Twilight Saga? Give 3 points to defend your answer.
Harry Potter - no contest. Anybody who says different is just plain wrong. I don't really need to defend myself but --
1. It has such a wonderful bunch of unique characters who all have such depth in them and they are a joy to read. I grew up with them and I want to be friends with them all! Yes even Draco.
2. Hogwarts - that place!!! As a child I would have given anything to go there.
3. Quidditch -  doesn't it sound like such fun??

4. Do you carry a book bag? If so, what is in it (besides books...)?
I have a handbag which always always has a book in. Obviously. Other than that it holds my purse, oyster card, railcard, passport, spare pair of glasses, lip balm, a notebook, about 30 pens, hairbrush, a compact mirror, an eyeliner pencil, a smattering of change and old receipts...and all manner of other rubbish - you know what it's like. I genuinely buy bags based on whether they can fit books in or not.

5. Do you smell your books?
If they're new...yes I most certainly do. Especially text books or those brochures that are on the shiny paper - they smell the best.

6. Books with or without little illustrations?
Without I think. I have nothing against illustrated books, but I don't really read them anymore. I have some gorgeous ones from my childhood though - a Beatrix Potter treasury among them. I hope to pass them on to my children one day.

7. What book did you love while reading but discovered later it wasn't quality writing? 
 Probably Harry Potter. Hell of a story though, so I will forgive it.   

8. Do you have any funny stories involving books from your childhood? Please share!
I honestly can't think of any!! I will get back to you.

9. What is the thinnest book on your shelf?
I have three of those little 80p Penguin Classics that they released for their 80th birthday. If you didn't see them, they are basically short stories in book form. Other than that, I have Heart of Darkness which is a very slim little book - absolutely impossible to read though. I attempted it last month and ended up skimming it.

10. What is the thickest book on your shelf?
I own Les Mis by Victor Hugo. Eeeeeesh that is a long book. My version is actually in two volumes, but it still counts, right?

11. Do you write as well as read? Do you see yourself in the future as being an author?
I do indeed. It is my ultimate ambition to become a published author and I am very determined. Watch this space.

12. When did you get into reading?
There was 'no getting into reading' for me. I have always been into it. My Dad read to me as a kid but I very soon wanted to read on my own and I was always ahead of the expected reading age when I was in primary school. I still devour books with a hunger that many people take the piss out of me for.

13. What is your favourite classic book?
Far from the Madding Crowd by Thomas Hardy. A beautifully written book and the character progression was wonderful too.

14. In school what was your best subject?
 English, surprise surprise. Did it for A level and studied it at uni.

15. If you were given a book as a present that you had read before and hated...what would you do?
I doubt this would happen for two reasons- one: my friends/family know that I buy books on almost a daily basis so wouldn't bother to try and find one I hadn't read. Two: I rarely hate books that strongly. Apart from Heart of Darkness apparently. But if it did happen, I would have no shame in taking it back to waterstones and swapping it or giving it away to a charity shop. I have so many books, I would not waste time/space on a rubbish one.

16. What is a lesser known series that you know of that is similar to Harry Potter or the Hunger Games?
The series I am writing and attempting to get published right now. It's brilliant and one day you will see it everywhere...promise. ;) While you are waiting try The Wind Singer series. I read it when I was like 12, and loved it but don't really hear much about it!

17. What is a bad habit you always do?
Ummm probably refusing company of friends to stay in and read instead. That happens occasionally...

18. What is your favourite word?
Splendid. It's just a splendid word.

19. Are you a nerd, dork, or dweeb? Or all of the above?
 Nope...I am awesome. Obviously.

20. What Hogwarts house would you want to be in?
 I did the test on Pottermore and came out as a Hufflepuff which didn't surprise me one little bit. Even on reading the books I thought Hufflepuff were the kindest, and most fun to be in. We were conditioned not to like Slytherin, Gryffindor was always way too arrogant/showy-offy for me and I am nowhere near smart enough for Ravenclaw. So Hufflepuff it was.

21. Which Faction would you be in?
I have never actually read the Divergent books but I have seen the films so I can answer this question. I'd probably be in Candor and always speak the truth because I am way too outspoken for my own good sometimes. Definitely wouldn't be in Abnegation or Dauntless, Amity is far too happy-clappy and I am not intelligent for Erudite.

22. Which District would you want to live in?
I wouldn't do very well if I was that poor and I would certainly be one of the first to die in the Hunger Games. So I choose the Capitol where I would be safe.

23. Wizards or Vampires?
Wizards all the way. What can vampires do other than kill people and sparkle?? And move really fast I guess...but wizards have brooms for that. I would love love love to have magic.

24. Love Triangle or Forbidden Love?
Love triangles I think. They always inspire such interesting character dynamics. Katniss' little love triangle was the best. Gah I just loved both of them and didn't know who to pick until right at the very end of the series. Naughty Gale!!!

25. AND FINALLY: Full on romance books or action-packed with a few love scenes mixed in?
I am soppy but I find romantic fiction can be a little bit...well...rubbish. In other genres, particularly fantasy, the characters are a lot more in-depth so I feel more deeply for them. Therefore, I think I would probably prefer to keep the romance to a section rather than be overwhelmed with lovey-dovey stuff.

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Saturday, 16 January 2016

Inside my desk

As I am talking so much about my writing at the moment, I thought I would show you where the magic happens. Ok, that came across as a little more flirty than I intended...where I create the magic? Where the magic begins? I'm just going to stop now...

My grandmother gave me this lovely bureau a while ago after it was in her hall for many years before that. Isn't it just loverly?? It's a touch too small to fit my laptop comfortably so I don't use my laptop on here at all. When I am blogging I tend to put it on a tray and sit or lie on my bed. So yes, I do basically all my blogging in bed. That's allowed right?

The bureau is where I do all my creative writing which (at the beginning stages anyway) I tend to do by hand. Hence why there are papers all over the desk. I am writing my current novel in the green notebook you can see clearly at the front. I like A4 notebooks for my first draft and it has to be good paper. Not any of that flimsy stuff you can buy for 20p in Tesco. The green one I am currently using is a Pukka Pad (which I love!!) but I also spend fortunes in Paperchase. They do THE most gorgeous notebooks you can imagine.  I could talk about them and drool over them all day! And I always say that I am allowed to spend as much as I like on notebooks because I am a writer and will definitely fill them. Yup. It's not like I have about a hundred spare ones in a drawer or anything.

While I am writing, if anything occurs to me I pop it onto a little post it note and chuck it down on my desk to read as I am going along. They are often reminders that I need to change things or I ask myself a question that I have to answer. Or it's extra bits of plot that I need to add in somewhere. And you can see all those scattered around too. 

Along the back there are a load of pens (I don't ever actually buy pens yet I always seem to be overflowing with them - it's like they breed in the pot or something) spare post its, highlighters, coloured pens, external hardrives, memory sticks...all those boring necessary things. But there's a couple of interesting things there too. On the left, the second little shelf down - that's kind of my lucky charm shelf. There are a couple of lucky ornaments there that I have had since I was a kid. But what they are sitting on gives me the most luck of all - it's a postcard from Jacqueline Wilson, telling my childhood self that she is proud that I manage to keep a journal every day and she is sure I will become an author one day. I am determined to make her prediction true =]

In the second cubby hole (kept separate from my diary and some boring important documents) is my ideas area -  it has my tiny A6 ideas notebook (where I put down any future novel ideas) and my book of poems. I am not a huge poet to be honest, but every now and then (normally when I am emotional) I have my moments. And that book is always to hand for when I do. In that cubby hole there are also some further notes to myself (I do a lot of that apparently) and some goodbye cards from back when I was a piano teacher last year, which I read when I am feeling low.

I have probably talked about most of the 'useful' things on my desk. What is left are all, basically, distractions: books, theatre programmes, my collection of snow globes from around the world, paper weights, DVDs...all these things are supposedly there to give me ideas and spark memories and trains of thought. But actually they are just simple distractions for when I get bored of being productive. Which, believe me, is extremely often. Any writer who tells you different is a liar.

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Wednesday, 13 January 2016

Ambitions VS Dreams

I was having a conversation with someone recently about writing (what else??) and how I was trying to get my novel published at the moment. And she said something along the lines of  'Oh yes...that has always been your dream, hasn't it?'

Now, this was a very old friend of mine. One who I hadn't seen in a while so I didn't feel like I could correct her. But she was quite wrong. Becoming a published author never has and never will be a dream of mine. It is an ambition. And that is extremely different.

Maybe I was being unfair. She knew me when I was a child and when I was 7 or 8 years old I probably did think of writing as a dream. I dreamt of being a published author because I knew it was a long way off and wouldn't happen for a very long time (until I was grown up and sensible and could do whatever I wanted).

Because that's what a dream is. It has a degree of unattainability about it. The word dream is just too...well...dreamy. It evokes a mystical quality where the idea shimmers ahead of you; always in the forefront of your mind certainly but you are never quite able to grab it.

There's nothing dreamy or shimmery or magical about an ambition. An ambition requires determination, every little brain cell you possess and a hell of a lot of hard work. And if you lack any of those things, there is no way you are going to achieve your goal. There is no point in dreaming of the day it is going to happen - that's just a waste of time. Instead you need to put every free second you have, towards achieving the goal. And you don't stop until you get there.

So while I might be dreaming of one day marrying Prince Harry or winning the lottery and going on a round-the-world cruise, I know in my heart of hearts that this will never happen. Writing though is one thing I am never going to put into my dreams. Because I know for certain that one day I will see my name staring up at me from the bookshelves of Waterstones. And the sooner that happens the better.

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Sunday, 10 January 2016

Tidying my wardrobe

As I am super interested in fashion, I love my job. Every day I get to discuss clothes, and help people find what is right for them, making them both look and feel great. It is hugely satisfying.

What is slightly less satisfying though, is the state of my own wardrobe. I am extremely restless at the moment and somehow that has translated to my clothes as well. After hoarding clothes for around 6 years, I had a mahoosive clearout 6 months ago when I moved house. Then I had two smaller ones, simply because I have become incredibly bored by my style. But don't worry - I haven't been left with nothing and have bought bits and pieces on almost a weekly basis to replace all the stuff I chucked out. Obviously.

In fact, my wardrobe has been overflowing and after coming home from work where everything is perfectly laid out, my own mess was becoming extremely irritating.

So I finally sorted it all out. I spent about an hour one evening folding everything and making it look pretty. Isn't it just loverlyyyyyy? I am now debating whether to buy a set of hangers so they all look the same and hang nicely. And maybe a steamer too... is that too much?

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Friday, 8 January 2016

The Gloss on Life

We live in a funny age. With the internet still a fairly new phenomenon and growing all the time, each person's presence online is growing by the year. Photos, thoughts, videos and more can be published in a variety of different channels which is brilliant for those of us who want to get our name out there. But is it actually so brilliant?

Humans, essentially, are quite vain creatures. You want your life (and your looks) to appear as perfect as they can. And social media is the perfect place to produce this perfect life - you can add filters, and project an image that everything is going fabulously and shouldn't you all be jealous of this amazing life I have. While, in fact, you are hiding behind the screen and covering up all the bad bits.

I do it myself. Take my Instagram, for example, where there are pictures of me in pretty dresses, or visiting beautiful places or snapping stunning sunsets. They are all accurate representations of what I am doing at the time (and actually I barely edit my Instagram pics!!) but what they don't show is me sitting around in my pyjamas with greasy hair. Or getting restless at work. Or crying about the fact the things I want, don't ever seem to happen.

And if you go one step further there are the bloggers and vloggers. Now these areas of the internet are meant to be our very own, where we can write whatever we want. A kind of cross between an online magazine and a diary, you can have all the exciting fashion and travel and beauty routines and events and all that jazzy stuff. But with a dash of comforting homely reality. The problem is -- that little dash of reality is becoming squashed out. And replaced by glitzy clothes hauls, flawless eye make up tutorials and descriptions of glamorous cruises around the Caribbean.

But it's not real. That eye make up, which is done in 10 minutes, might have actually taken 3 hours to shoot. To go on those cruises, those bloggers may have had to save up for three years. You don't know what really went on behind the scenes, because that isn't what the blogger wants to project.

You should never look at someone's Twitter or Instagram and go 'That's the life I want to lead'; 'Why isn't my life like that?' or 'I'm jealous.' It isn't something which is actually attainable. Which is actually pretty sad as that is not the aim of many bloggers. It certainly isn't my aim and I have always tried to stay true to myself throughout my three and a half years of blogging. As I believe that my downs are so common that I may be able to help other people by talking about them and get helped in return.

But even if you don't have the confidence to exhibit your downs out there in the world for all to see, my parting advice is this -- try not to look at other people's social media lives with envy. Instead, be content with what you have and strive for what you don't because you actually want it (rather than because someone else has it). Don't waste time or effort being jealous of other people who have made themselves look shinier than they actually are. It's just not worth it and life is too short.

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Tuesday, 5 January 2016

Best of 2015

Before I throw myself into this brand new year of blogging and the delights it will be sure to bring, I thought I would have a reflective minute where I look back on the posts that I published throughout 2015. There have been some great ones, which I have loved writing and that, in some cases, are about such important topics. While in other cases, they are downright silly and just good fun. Do take a few minutes to check them out, because these ones are the best of last year. I hope you enjoy them...

Theatre Etiquette - as an avid theatre goer, I have experienced a lot of different audiences. And some really really don't understand how they should behave. Follow these simple rules and you won't go wrong. Ignore this post and you may be killed by a Theatre have been warned.

The A-Z of Charlotte - Last February I published a blogging series called Getting to Know Me where I became a little more personal in the posts. It was the first time my blog actually centred around me rather than things I did or experiences I had (there's a slight difference!!) and I know not everyone may care, but I also know that a lot of people enjoyed these fun little posts. This was my favourite to write but I did like all of them which included a post called 50 Shades of Fun...I know you want to check that one out too.

Falling in love with heroes - I like to talk about the really important things in life. Which includes this post all about why men in books/films are so much better than in real life.

New York and Boston - I LOVE LOVE LOVE writing travel posts and if this could be a travel blog, I would make it so. Unfortunately though I can't afford to go traveling all the time so they only appear every now and then. Which is such a shame because they are my best posts by far - the photography is generally better, there are more photographs and I just come across throughout the whole thing as being completely overexcited wherever I am. I was lucky enough to visit our buddies across the pond this spring, and I love the two articles I wrote about my trip.

What? Why? When? - this is a very unflashy post. There aren't any photographs, no big's just me typing away, stripping back and talking about why I blog. It was a real turning point for me because it showed me what I wanted to achieve with my blogging and what I find important about it. After months of feeling insecure this post helped me a lot. If you read me regularly and wonder why I started in the first place and why I continue, this will be interesting.

22 Things I've learnt - in the lead up to my 23rd birthday I thought I would try to think up a few of vital things I have learnt recently. And this is what I came up with...they are super profound.

Body Shaming: The Thin Version - This was an incredibly important post that needed to be said. When slim people are body-shamed, their abusers don't even realise they are doing it or what the issue is, most of the time. Make sure you read this.

You know you're a theatre nerd when... - This just about sums up who I am...

Checkmate - Some rare creative writing on the blog

How to style summer clothes in the winter - I have always loved fashion. And now I work in fashion retail I am styling other people as well as myself. I might attempt a few more fashion posts this year.

Blogtober/Booktober - It's no secret that I love books. And I used Booktober to take arty pictures of them and to recommend my 31 favourites...

12 Things you should know when doing your shopping - if you don't want to be murdered by the lovely staff who look after all your shops throughout the year (and put up with your ridiculousness) I suggest you read this advice.

Looking back at all these posts has made me remember to be proud of my writing. I enjoy producing all of them so so much and occasionally I feel that some of my best work has been lost in the muddle of three and a half years worth of  content.

So I thought this year, I would start revisiting some of it. I have so much writing on here, most of which isn't read regularly any more. It seems a shame considering the amount of work I put into each post.

To celebrate and join with the wildly popular idea of Throwback Thursday, every Thursday I will be looking back to a favourite vintage post of mine and will talk about it a little on it came about, why I wrote it and what gave me the idea. So make sure you follow my Twitter to ensure you don't miss any of my old content.

I hope that you have enjoyed these posts from the previous year and please do let me know if there are any particular ones (or a particular style) that you love. I am sure 2016 will see some similarly excellent stuff so I shall see you very soon with yet more posts.

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